Getting off the Pissed Wagon

I haven't written in awhile, and I feel terrible about that. I've been wanting to write again, but for various reasons, I haven't (too tired, don't feel like doing the actual work, wondering if anyone else actually reads this anyway...) But I feel compelled to write today because I think I may have actually found someone I can have a real relationship with. I have to say that I'm actually ecstatic about this new "relationship," but I am trying to temper my enthusiasm because I don't want to get too excited about it - you know - trying not to jinx myself. Anyway, I met this guy on a tennis website (I am a tennis FIEND), and originally we got together just to play tennis. Even though I knew he was a HOTTIE when he emailed me (could see his pic), and he probably thought I was a HOTTIE (I, too have a bangin' pic on the site), so there were probably thoughts in the back of both of our minds about making this about more than just tennis. So.....we went out about 2 weeks ago for the first time, and we had a blast (even though he's a 4.0 and I'm a 3.0), and we decided to do it again. Well, I went out of town for a week, and while I was out of town, I texted him and asked him if he wanted to go out again this past Saturday (to play tennis, of course). He agreed, and we played yesterday and he hung out at my place for a bit afterwards. We had several great (heated) conversations about global warming, politics, our Republican tendencies, etc. We both like to debate about things, so it was fun. And he's HOT HOT HOT!!! You know me - I generally only get to date men who are just not repulsive - good-looking ones don't come along very often - so I'm psyched about this guy so far. I really never thought I would find anyone who adored tennis as much as I do. Wonderful! :-) I'm blogging to get all of my wonderful thoughts out of my head so they don't swim around in there and end up drowning me. I have a tendency to think too much about relationships, especially when they first start, and I'm really trying to keep from thinking about this guy too much. I need to be able to concetrate on other things, you know? Well, actually, I don't need to concentrate on other things because it's the summer and I am off of work, so I could sit around and do absolutely nothing if I wanted to. But I don't want to. For example, I have a league tennis match today at 4pm. I'm hoping to actually win this one, even though I'll be wearing my glasses because I'm getting the LASIK surgery soon, so I can't wear my contacts. I don't know how I'm going to win a tennis match wearing GLASSES, for heaven's sake. Sigh...but you see, there ARE things to concentrate on other than my hot new guy. So I'm blogging about it so that I can put him out of my mind, at least for awhile.

The title of this blog is such as it is because I might be getting off the wagon. I'm not sure if it's because of this new guy or just because I realize that life is like this sometimes, and there's nothing you can do. Sometimes (Oftentimes), life isn't what you want it to be, and I just need to accept that. Sure, I had pictured myself married at the age of 24 (or, at least having regular sex by then), and I'm now 31 and I haven't had regular sex in two years (and even that was with someone that I didn't actually like). Before that, I hadn't had regular sex in 4 years (again, with someone who wasn't exactly a good catch). Sigh...here's to hoping that one day soon I will indeed be having regular sex with someone I actually like! Then, my life would be damn near perfect! :-)